Happy birthday!

Why i found the blue one in the fridge i do not know.

PS. Check your email. :)

Birthday. Soon.

My birthday is already around the corner, 2 days left. I feel weird, weren't I 18 already?

Not waiting for anything special, it's just a day among the others. Anyways, I ordered some clothes for myself as a present.

On saturday we (Meo and me) are planning to probably go out somewhere (it will be weird for Meo because he's not playing the music ... :D)

Now I should go cleaning, my room looks like a hot mess and I guess my grandparents will come to visit me on Wednesday.

Fifth of June

So it turned out I didn't need / couldn't / didn't get to join Meo to Vaasa. He's travelling tomorrow at 7 a.m. with his grandpa. Me myself staying in Espoo packing up my stuff for the vacation. Now I'll just cross my fingers Meo nails the interview and gets a place in PF (the school in Vaasa).

I really haven't done anything today. The most important thing was Meo and me watching Porco Rosso and The cat returns with a big bowl of popcorn and some vegetables and dip. A nice evening don't you say?

Now I'm at my parents place, soon going to sleep.

Good night, and Good luck!

Fourth of June

Today has been an oddly rough day. I started to study geography for my matriculation exams, it took longer than I had expected. With a tired mind I parked myself in front of Meos macbook and watched some finnish tv-series to cheer me up.

Meo and I went to the store and than played some Civ (again..), now I'm starting to feel almost too powerless, Thinking about going to sleep soon (because I'll wake up at 7.30 a.m, exactly like today.)

Good Night!

Third of June

I slept until 10 a.m. The beautiful singing of birds from outside woke me. It's summer. I tooke it very chill and enjoyed my day and morning together with my parents. Later my mom and I went shopping, buying some new summer clothing and got creeped out by a guard in one of the stores.

Now I'm at Meos (or actually at Meos and my place - haven't technically moved yet, but I spend more time here than at my parents), playing CIV V and making some food.

I should start reading to my matriculation exams soon - or I won't get started at all.

Hoping it will be an even better day tomorrow.

(PS. I Love You Meo! <3)

Second of June

So that was it. One more year of school behind. It was funny - the first time I wasn't nervous, or freaking out.

I was watching my childhood friend getting her student cap today, and I actually got a tear in my eye.

Are we really this old already? I can remember the times when we were 10 years old like yesterday.

After school I hurried away (sorry for those whom I didn't say happy summer to (or hug), but I hope we'll see eachother soon!), and went to the store and bought a rose, chocolate and strawberries. I had a plan.

Twenty minutes later I stood outside Meos door, in my summer dress, with the rose and everything I bought to wish him a good start of our vacation. Actually I wished him more than that. I gave the rose to the best teacher, the best boyfriend and the bestest best person in the whole wide world. He was speachless.

I just sat watching pictures from our hotel in Turkey (where me and my family are going next week), and I don't know if I even want to go. Yes, it's pretty, and warm and everything - but I have my whole life here (Meo that is), and can't stand the thought of leaving him here for a week. I'll miss him so much! :(

Now I'm planning to go to bed, to sleep until I'm not able to sleep more and try to get well. Meo is supposed to travel to Vaasa for Tuesday, and I would LOVE to join him, (though only if my parents let me out...)!

Now it's one more year and it's me walking out of those doors in school with the white cap resting on my head. It's pretty cool, but also scary. Where am I heading next? - that's the big question.

First of June

So it's been a while..

No, but we've been busy both Meo and I, and finding time for blogging hasn't been an option.

It's the last day of school, me - not even going to school, and the rainy weather. Meo went to the store to buy his students some ice-cream and cookies. :)

I actually don't know what to write, my head is still spinning from back to Wednesday when I suddenly got an attack and felt really ill. Next day I was so weak I couldn't even move my legs (or lift my hand to eat). Today I'm still recovering, and not therefore going to school.

Now I'm thinking about playing a game of CIV V, or perhaps Mount&Blade, and taking it easy. :)

Flu.

Yap. I've got the flu. Been so tired and mad and dissapointed and everything this afternoon.I've got fever and some random illness and I've been very tired. Meo came and visited me after his work, we snuggled, he made me smile for the first time today and then he went on to MaDraK and to fetch a book from Akademen. I myself have been watching many episodes of my favourite cooking show, then I slept atleast one and a half hour and then I ordered some summer clothes from the internet. Now I'm talking with Meo, but I think I'll let him play with his friends :)

Good night.

Well.. Yea..

I've been away from the computer this week. The main two reasons for that has been a) I've had a test week (again!) and b) I've been at Meo's the whole week.

He requested that I should do some blogging, and now I will. Nothing long, just telling a bit about my week..

Monday was an pretty unneccessary day, because I went to school to 12 and only had driving school. And Meo came to school and I got a ride to our home. Chilling at home and then going back to my parents for a 10 hour sleep. (Oh, and Nips had her real Birthday!)
Tuesday was as chill as Monday. I began at 12:45, and only had a writing course. Of course the teacher wasn't at school so I could had skipped it.. -.-" Then I went to Meo's with train..
Wednesday. Hmm.. I had Writing (teacher still gone) and then Swedish.. lame day, went to Meo's..
Thursday, I had an essay test in Swedish. I think it went pretty well. Then I had a lesson in English.. I went to Meo, chatted with Nips and baked chocolate and blueberry cupcakes :)
Today I had test in English, an essay test about some famous english novels and authors (You had to analyse a lot.) I hope it went well :) Later I had geograpichs and almost slept through the lesson..

Now I've cleaned, been bad and dissapointed, eaten delicious food and packed my bag for a weekend at Meos. Love love love.

I hope you enjoy your Weekend!

Big Hugs!

Jonna

These days

So it's monday and that means business as usual again.

Today the kids saw an opportunity in switching from winter time to summer time and managed to sneak the clock forwards with almost ten minutes. Sadly for them i once again noticed their mishievous plan and as the lessons end loomed closer i kept on insisting that what we were doing was so important they just had to finnish it before they could go out (all the while i secretly kept track on what the time actually was with my wrist watch). My pupils, being reliable and hard working as always, kept with it (most probalbly just so they wouldn't be caught) and only when the watch showed ten past the actual time for the break to start i told them they could go out. Of course this was where they thought they'd be able to cut some slack with their little trick since the first attempt failed. So they decided to ask if they'd get a longer break. My answer was simple and short, a no. After a few disappointed shouts (they're really good actors i tells ya), and failed attempts from them to argue for a longer break, i looked at them and asked them if they really thought I never tried to fiddle with a school clock to trick the teacher into giving a longer break.

Every time they try to trick me with something like that it just makes me smile. The way the whole group plays together just to make something work is great. No one ever blows their cover just to be the teachers pet (they do know that's a sure way to make me mad as hell) and no one ever blames someone else for messing something up. They really did earn their party on wednesday.

The afternoon in turn went by really slowly and nicely, after tossing a friend home while fetching the girl from her driving lesson. I really don't remember a monday this great in ages. The reason is simple though, we just spent the whole evening together with Jonna, enjoying good food and snacks and just generally not giving a damn about everything called school and work and instead just taking it easy, real easy.

On this weeks to-do list is writing up a test, writing an angry letter to the main kitchen (which is at another school altogether), send in my school and job applications and help out with a little bit of english. That's pretty much it.

Good night and good luck!

Gimme some lovin'

We're blogging here together on the sofa, while watching Finnish Idols. This weekend has been very lovely, we've learnt to live.

Yesterday we had Meos younger sister visiting us, and we just have taken it easy, eating delicious food (made by me...)

But, I'll give this computer over to Meo. (:

Oh yeah. So living for the fullest. I guess Jonna said the most in short but what she didn't mention was our friday eve with an awesome party over at Nips. I got a chance to test out my new DJ gear and just generally have a fun time. And we even got to meet our friend Serppis. :D

Oh and the i've got to enjoy the best possible food again today. Jonna made us some awesome pasta carbonara and there's much enough of it to last for half the week. Yeah, im a happy man!

Here's a borrowed picture of the evening.

Anarchy for all!

Tuesdays are what i call the fourthgraders day. Its the day when i have most of the day with them and only two last lessons with my fifthgraders together with the sixthgraders in PE. One of the lessons though was spent trying to bash some morals into a firstgrader who seems to have a tough time with him being in school. Fortunately i can trust my own class enough to just give them five seconds of directions and then let them work for themselves, i think they actually liked to work in peace for once instead of having a waving and shouting teacher there all the time.

Later on i caused a slight commotion as i told my fifthgraders that they get to keep a party for succceeding so well in their math tests (something i had promised them earlier). It was a close call for them but thanks to one of the more challenged kids managing well in his own test they passed. They were ofcourse really happy but as usually there were plenty of other kids at the school who got jealous. Our school is "candy free zone" and i had told my pupils that they get to bring snacks but not candy but of course the other kids immeadetly thought they'd get to bring candy. And just to mess with them every time they asked me why the fifth graders were allowed to bring candy i just told them that i am the king in my class and i make the rules. Never did i even by mistake tell them that they actually wouldn't be allowed to bring candy.

At the end of the school day i just couldn't say no when some of the kids came up with the idea of masking themselves as clothes in the clothes rack as well as on the floor to spook the other kids who would go fetch their jackets.

All in all a pretty usual day for me and my class. Good work, great fun. I know i tend to be pretty demanding and strict but i guess it pays off at the end always.

After work i went to fetch Jonna and we went to our friend Nips for a cup of coffee and to quickly make a check audio connections for some upcoming partying. While there we made friends with their dog and so the day turned to evening and it wasn't until sorta late that we left. Before saying goodnight and cruising home me and Jonna went for some hamburgers, icecream and an evening stroll and just generally had a wonderful time.



And yeah, this picture is shamelessly ripped off Nips. Good pictures i gotta admit though. Now to close down the computer after a few rounds of MOW, which also turned pretty humorous, and into a great tomorrow.

Good night and good luck!

Go to bed!

Well i gotta admit it's a while since i last posted. And really, i don't have any reason why it's taken so long again since there's actually been a good deal of stuff going on. At this very moment im sitting in the kitchen, just having left Alan Wake at the beginning of the last chapter, thinking back at the past weeks and how great life once again has seemed to be despite all kinds of more mundane troubles.

At work i've started a war for better school food as well as whole deal of smaller projects. My students in turn are doing equally great with the whole class improving evenly. Maths in particular has seemed to benefit of this. But yeah, speaking of school food, i guess it's enough said to mention that the war broke out when i didn't get salad to my lunch. Yupp, definitely worth to start a riot for. I'll post more of the story as it progresses this week.

Im not sure if this sudden burst of energy might have its origins in the fact that i haven't had any gigs for two weeks but i doubt it since even DJing has gotten way more interesting again and i'm itching to get my hands on a new controller i ordered, NI S2, meanwhile having practiced a few new tricks to use in my workflow. Im actually pretty anxiously waiting for more gigs since the controller scene for DJs took another huge leap forward last week and i plan to catch up to that train somewhere along the spring once i've gotten a good overlook over the incoming S2.

And like Jonna wrote, dog fever caught me too. Actually earlier tonight we spent a good deal of time over at my parents place (since one of my sisters had her birthday) and argued over what kind of dog would best fit in with our life. The converseation got loud as usually and we noticed that we were still talking really loud, nearly shouting, to eachother when we drove away from there. You really have to be slightly bonkers to survive a common evening conversation with my parents and sisters. It's going to take a while before there's any point in starting to look for a dog for us but it's still nice to think about the future and prepare a little bit.

Anyhow, time to finnish my late night hamburger and head to catch some sleep for a few hours.

Good night and good luck!

Shake it!

 

It's a normal Saturdayevening, I'm blogging while Meo is playing some random war game with some dudes. I ignore the noise he makes by listening to old music from 2007-2008. How young I've been back then! I've replayed this song like 200 times :D

It has been a very relaxed day, I made us some food, We wen't to the store, cleaning the house (a lot!)... the usual weekend. (Although we saw like 6-7 persons we knew only on the way to the store and back...)

Now I should finish my pizza, close off this MacBook Pro (never used one before) and soon go to sleep. Tomorrow is also a chill day, cleaning and school work, some workout and so on.

PS. Me and Meo have fallen in love in this dog breed Samoyed. We want one, and fast (: <3 !!!

PSS. Some photos of this appartment should pop up here tomorrow sometime. I'll photograph it tomorrow when it's light. :)

School.

Okay. So, no life here, I've been busy. (And Meo too..) Now I'm sitting in school, on a writing course which is the last thing for today. Blogging is writing right? (Really I have no inspiration for writing the actual assignment).

I'm listening to Nightwish new album Imaginaerum, it's cool. Anyway, I don't really have inspiration for blogging either, but I thought an update would be alright. :D

Later today is still open, let's see what happens. All I know is that I've read the book I'm supposed to read, and I don't have any homework. SCORE!

But I should start writing on my school assignment, so I don't leave it to the last minute again.

Photomania nr. I

Okay, I really don't feel sleepy anymore, so I thought I could post the pictures, right?

Our new livingroom shelf

With a matching TV (And my plants to the left)

  

More of my plants, this is my miniature herbfarm (IKEA, 5 €)

Meos DJ-stuff divides the livingroom. (Computer to the right)

Hah, I'm proud of theese.

Our Bonsai (Ramon, I know it doesn't look like one.. I really didn't know how to cut it :D)

Yea, I could perhaps take more photos tomorrow. I love our livingroom, it's just so calm and warm. Still, right now it feels a bit empty because I'm alone in here.

Now, I'll try to go and get some sleep before Meo comes. I Miss Him.

The lion sleeps tonight.

Well hello there. It's been a very silent week, I'm sorry.

Now, I just wanted to let you know that everything is alright here, and the spring is on its way.

I'm blogging, Meo is at work at Bella (DJ-ing) and I'm supposed to sleep here all alone. It's a bit scary, this house has a lot of weird noises, and I'm not sure if I'm able to get any sleep before Meo comes home at 4:30 am.

Anycase, I'll be going now, I'll to post up some pictures we promised to post earlier, perhaps tomorrow, when Meo still is asleep. (:

Goodnight everyone!

Breakfast

Yea, as Meo wrote yesterday we've had an amazing week. Finally all my stress from my prom/dance (or whatever you call it) is over, and I can spend all my extra time on Meo (and studying).

Now I'm waiting for my lovely chef to make me some breakfast, and then start studying. A thing that I've forgotten all this week.

Tomorrow school is back on, and how lovely isn't it, that my day is from 8:15 to 17:00.

But now I'll go and do the dishes, we still don't have enough forks and knives...

Hoping for that Meo and I will remember to blog a bit more often,

Jonna.

Barbars

So winter holidays right. Great time to catch up on things you have planned on doing for oh so long but never just could (or didn't want) to find the time for. Or so i thought. I did manage to go snowboarding though, something i had promised Gusy a long time already.

But we surely have been doing stuff with Jonna. The whole apartment has gotten a few extra touches with new furniture and other stuff. The bedroom is a mess as it turned into a temporary storeroom for everything that we're going to move out and there are still some stuff to hang on the walls as well as a lamp that needs fixing but all in all it's looking great. We're going to try to put up some photos too. It's been a great week together for the two of us.

Since last night i've been on the road a bit as i got invited to the launch party of a company called HDF. The event was a really nice opportunity to get to know the people i work with at the club as well as to build some good reputation among that new business. I also got to see some of the best freestyle rappers i've seen so far.

Tonight was another gig and i got to warm up for Lord Est as well as finish the night after he was gone. I've managed to get a reputation that whenever im around something odd and usually something of disastrous nature happens and since last time i got complimented for "not causing a mess" it was bound to happen today.

I had just finished warming up for Lord Est and his band had taken over when all of sudden i hear a metallic clank right next to me and notice that there's a tall aluminum bar leaning on all the audio gear just centimeters from my face. After a closer look i figured it had fallen from the roof above me, just barely missing my head. Smart as i was i decided to go watch the performance from a better spot, a good call since after a few minutes another one of the bars dropped down. The bartenders and bouncers had hard to believe their eyes when i showed the bars to them.

So one more oddity to add to the list that already includes drinking glasses getting smashed into walls, fights, a fire and toilet party rocking. At least i keep true to my reputation.

When i got home i just couldn't feel happier since not only did i get a text from the girl on my way home but she had also left a note for me. She's just wonderful i tells ya. Simply the best.

Now tomorrow is going to be some MaDraK, then the last bits of holiday spent together with my love.

Don't forget the walrus.
Good night and good luck!

Lately Vol.II

So yeah. Again another week comes to its end.

Work has been good i suppose. Actually it keeps on getting better all the time. The more i feel inspired the better the kids seem to do and the more too they do seem to enjoy school. I've even opened a blog for them and it has turned into a diary and noticeboard for the whole class. And with the approaching winter break i also had to put my head into thinking of grades.

Trying to figure out billing and taxation for my DJ gigs has also been a topic that looms closer all the while as i keep on postponing it forever. Something i should not do because it means money for me.

But all these things feel small tonight. I've done bigger steps together with Jonna and the past days have really felt like ours. I miss her a lot this very moment and i just cant stop thinking of all the good moments we've shared. As said, this is February and that means we've been together for a year, and i long to see what the future holds for us.

Seems this blog also turned a year old since its revival.

Good night and good luck!

Lately Vol.I

So i got this suggestion that i should post in bits and pieces.

Its a great idea since lately i just haven't found the time to write. The school has been a battleground and it has worn me down quite a bit. And you know how it is when you are tired. Slowly every small pebble starts to seem like a mountain and you just slow down. I couldn't have gotten this far and i wouldn't have fought this well if i wasn't for Jonna. Even though she has her tests going on she always finds time for the two of us. Of course i've been helping with everything i can too and that means i haven't spent too much time at home, but i rather have it this way.

I'll try to post something along the lines of what has been going on at work. I've come up with quite some ideas as well as tried my best to help everyone else keeping the school in working order, there has even been some improvement here and there.

Honestly though im just glad tomorrow is Friday. I know i have loads to do but after that Jonnas tests as well as this working week for me are going to be over and for a weekend we wont have to think about anything else than having a good time and giving time and thought to each other. Like said, this is february. :) <3

Good night and good luck!

Almost there.

With only one more test to go, I thought I could blog (when Meo really hasn't.) I'm waiting for my school to end, so I can take myself home, boil a cup of hot cocoa and then read mathematics. It's killing me. Economical Mathematics. -.-"

I havn't been a good student (what comes to reading) because I've only played Portal 2 with Meo (And read at the same time - great!)

Anycase, Everything is good, it's very cold (like - 22 degrees celcius), so I'm freezing, and the cold weather has gotten me the flu. I've been ill for the whole week, and now Meo has got it too.

The spring is coming in a fast pace, but I'll rather stay in this month forever. February is my favorite month of the year. Love is why. Meo and I have been together for a year now, And the love continues. (: <3

Here's a song to honor the day (or Portal..)

Vote 1

Last night i slept terribly. For some reason the presidential elections were spooking around my brain. Even more funny since it's not really a thing that i even care about. I guess its because it happens to be all over the place these days.

At work there was some talk about it and it turned out i wasn't the only one who had slept badly for the very same reason and equally oddly. And later yet when i vent to the gas station for coffee with some friends there was even more discussion about this.

Well tonight im tuning my brains in on another channel. Cause tomorrow i'm gonna go and say hi to my girl and help her out with some studying. ^_^ - <3

Tangled

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Sorry for no bloging for a while. I've been busy doing school stuff. And that's what I'll be doing next week as well. Tests about healthy living, world's history and fennoswedish litterature and it's history. There's a lot to learn, but we'll make it.

Wish me luck. Hopefully Meo will write more often than usual.

Save the world

...or just save yourself when shit starts hitting the fan.

So, tonight certainly was a good party alright. The chaos that it resulted in was in turn up to scale. The amount of broken glasses was probably close to the amount of drinks sold.

- Due to an accident we ended up with ice cubes all over the floor behind the bar, this made walking around slightly hazardous.
- A bar fight with enough participants to be considered a riot occurred.
- Bar fight resulted in glass shards once again all over my workspace and a bloody face for one of the customers after that some moron decided to smash a glass into the face of some other moron.
- Someone decided to tip me with a fiver. Turned out it was a little more than just a fiver.
- Near the end of the night some smartypants decided to topple over a pile of glasses at the bar and once again, shards everywhere.
- A customer requested for me to play my own favorite song. This i found slightly confusing.
- I heard a story about how i look exactly like an Australian guy who used to play American football in France until he broke his neck. This was even more confusing.

Apparently one of the bartenders had made a funny observation that every time the place seems to go totally bonkers i am there. And she wasn't all that sure if it that was the correct order in which things happen but that it actually might be the other way around.

Lord am i glad that tomorrow is going to be history studying.

Fade into darkness

So today's gig was useless. The people made no sense at all and seemed to enjoy the most random songs without any logic. The request of the day award once again went to a person who said "play something good!". Well, at least i wasn't the only one feeling shitty. A bartender who's become a friend of mine even ended up being attacked by a customer who first had called him names and when he had been escorted out turned around and tried to hit him in the face. At least i have a few fans who brighten up my day every now and then. As for the title of the post, that was the closing song for the night.

So we all went home wishing each other a better night tomorrow.

Now i just want to go to sleep so i can wake up and take it easy with the girl tomorrow. It's funny how love works, it seems like an endless source of happiness.

Shitty shit...

So today has been a pain alright, the whole day i've felt like throwing up and every now and then spent some quality time together with the toilet seat and the bathroom floor. Im not sure if it's something i ate, a stomach flu or something else but i doubt it matters. The feelings can be concluded in the line "We're talking crap about crap, what a load of crap" as we stated with my friend Gusy over the phone earlier today.

Still, i can only say i must be the luckiest guy. As soon as Jonna ended school she went home and has been sitting talking with me. I don't always say nice things, and my languages has a tendency to get even rougher when i'm feeling crap, but still she kept me company. It's just something with her, like she never wants t give up. It's inspiring and empowering, no matter what is going on.

Eventually i rolled over to my parents place since not having managed to keep food inside me properly for 24 hours is starting to wear me a bit. So now i sit here, watching TV in the guest room (which is like its own small apartment without kitchen) and can only think about how nice it is to have people around you who care when you really need it.

I just hope this would ease till tomorrow because i want to give that day to her who gave her today to me.

Good night and good luck!

Boringness.

Today has been an not so good day. I had a boring day of school, while Meo was home ill. I texted him like one thousand times, and I know my father won't be happy with my phone bill.

Anyways, it was worth it. Now I'll try to focus on school work and later on chilling with Meo.

Have a nice day!

And Darling. Get well soon! <3

Six wok pizza crisis.

So today went by with a lot of work to do. Well i got to cut some slack but there was certainly none for the girl. You see, due to the play we did she had a lot of school work to do. Practically starting from the morning (not to mention the night before that she spent hours reading) she kept on reading and writing.

The night before it had meant i had to play master chef, which in turn turned out pretty awesome. I cooked together a nice chicken wok, the sauce was ready made though, and some noodles. The noodles tasted like rubber so the next day we had some rice instead which turned out to be far better.

Later we got ourselves some freezer pizza which decided to, due to some old stuff that had dropped around the oven, almost cause a fire alarm to go off. Not to panic, even though for a second we did when we realized there was maybe a bit too much smoke, i made a call down to the nice pizza kebab restaurant right next door and pizza was ours.

I might have helped where i could and slacked off where i couldn't between sorting food and other necessary stuff but the real work was something Jonna did herself. And i must say i am so damn proud of her. But it's not just the work she did, no no, its just a small part of it all. The important thing is that she is amazing, and I am proud that we have chosen the life we took as ours, I'm proud to be by her side, I'm proud to have her by my side.

Good night and good luck!

Sunday

I tried to write something smart a while ago here on this blog. It ended up in like 2 sentences and I gave up. Then I complained to Meo and said I wanted to write (I seriously love writing in english) and he just said: 'You can always write about stuff'. Then he turned around and continued his cooking.

First one

I've thought a lot about my first blogpost here. How to make a good first impression, how not to sound like an unpersonal person.

Nothing much has happened during this week. We had the play, it went pretty well. I really miss the theater we acted at. It was the first places where Meo and me started to hang out a year ago.

Oh well, back from the nostalgia. I haven't slept enough last night, I look like a zombie. Maybe we'll chat with Meo a little time more and then go to sleep. I miss him. A lot. Tomorrow is a brighter day, I feel it.

Darling;
I love you, through everything that will ever happen.
It's you and me. Forever.
Because your love is my life.

Oh, just so you won't wonder, I like to add some lyrics from beautiful songs at the end of my blogposts. Or did it when I started blogging.

Oh love don't let me go
Won't you take me where the streetlights glow
I could hear it coming
I could hear the sirens sound
Now my feet won't touch the ground.
Coldplay - Life in Technicolor II

Overture

This blog got started way back. Back when my life was a just a shadow of what it could have been. In that time i really had not energy or willpower to keep on writing. Truth is, i was very ill. It was the lungs as some people might recall. And the blog was supposed to be about music and not much else.

Things have moved far from back then. Music is, and always will, be a cornerstone in my life but things change and with time dreams start to become reality. Not the way a dream unfolds in the mind, but in a way that dreams turn into reality, and the truth is that it is far more beautiful that way. I have grown a lot, and i have not done it alone. I found a companion.

Jonna told me she didn't want to keep on writing her old blog and said she wanted to write in english (great practice for her English exams in a year) and so i invited her to write here with me. She's quite a different kind of a blogger than me, who tends to ramble on and not write much of the things that really happen around, but i guess you'll notice.

I hope y'all enjoy this small change.

Lately

Lately its been an awfully busy time working on MaDraKs latest play. Its been close to flooping me totally and so it does feel good to know that the performances start the day after tomorrow and that my usual day to day work is going to be what follows that. Though really, being at the theater just never feels bad for me. Having the performances and all the work that surrounds those days is fun.

I've grown a lot during these holidays. There's been things bugging me awfully lot and it has sometimes felt as if my life just ground to a halt. I've spent countless sleepless nights worrying about the future and being angry over the past. But i feel it's not worth it anymore, it's time to move on and just learn from the mistakes and carry the consequences. We make choices when we do what we must, because we can.

And to my girl i just wish to say this.
If you love me when i need it the most. You are the right one for me.
If you love me when i deserve it the least. You are the right one for me.
Thank you, for being by my side today.

For the first time in a long while i go to sleep so that i don't regret tomorrow more than yesterday.

Good night, and good luck!